Urine Sample #7: ?

I am not good at anything. And I just can’t find something to be good at… Except from loving him, I guess. But loving is way beyond the question. I don’t know, I just suck at everything. And as I say everything, I mean everything. And oh no! I don’t just suck at everything… I suck! Yes! That’s why people look at me as a kid with nothing to accomplish. That’s right. They think I can do nothing, absolutely nothing. They think they can’t trust anything to me… No, they don’t just think about it. They do it.

Maybe it was my fault though. I don’t trust myself too. And I do think too that I can’t do anything, definitely.

Oh! This damn self-esteem is going way too far down.

It’s a horse shit! Cai can’t be good at anything at all, not even in writing, academics, blogging, socializing, being a CURSOR member, being a daughter, a girlfriend, and I’m not very sure if I am a good friend, or INFO mem for less. Cai just sucks.

What else can I be good at? Nothing.

There are a lot of things I want to do. But there seems to be something that’s stopping me from doing those things. I just don’t know what and why. Better put, there are things I want to do that I can’t do. Darn.

There are certain reasons why, but people don’t understand.
Neither does me.

Whenever I start to write, I stop. I just can’t think of anything to write at all.

I suck!
Life is a shit!!!
Boo Cai! Booo!!!